Beautiful Mystery

I've been listening to this song today that we heard in church. Its called "Beautiful Mystery."
The lyrics are:
I will praise you
with all of my heart soul and strength
And I need you
more and more each day
Lord I love you
at the foot of the cross I will stay

Your blood it covers me so I'll sing

Halleluiah its a beautiful mystery
Halleluiah to love someone you can't see
Halleluiah to be loved by you my King
My King

This has kind of been my song of the day. How great is our God! There have been so many times this year where I felt downhearted, when I felt like I couldn't handle one more disappointment or failure. But, in that time, I clung to God. He rewards us for our faith. He blesses us. Its funny how in times where we feel tested the most it can be easier to have faith and trust in God, but for me, its hardest in the day to day aspects of life. Knowing that I can fall back on Him for anything, even in looking for which way to go when I'm driving my car. But for me, its not that easy. I try to control the little things, and I think God has placed so much on me to show me that I can trust in Him everyday, no matter the issue, no matter how small it may seem. And I will praise Him with all of my heart, soul, and strength. It seems like in the worst of times, it is the easiest to praise Him for me...

I am learning to become a woman of God. Its not easy. Choosing to love God is a daily adventure. Its something that makes me abandon myself everyday. I have to decide to follow Him, even when its not easy. I am learning to love people as He loves me... I am learning to follow. Its hard to follow when you're so used to leading. I learned this in a dance class I took. I had a really hard time letting the guy lead. It was easier for me to lead. My dance partner, my friend Zak, struggled to get me to trust him not to run me into someone. And I knew he wouldn't... But trust is something I struggle with. Even though I know I can trust God, its hard to practice something that you have never learned how to do. But I am learning... God is an amazing teacher.

I've been thinking alot about Sin... A friend of mine is pursing this girl who has a boy friend. This girl is cheating on her boyfriend with him... I've been trying to consul this friend on walking in the ways of Jesus and have let myself become proud. I feel like I am a better Christian than he is because of his unwillingness to turn from this sinful relationship... But I am no better than this kid... I am starting to think that my pride causes more damage to my faith and to the church than the sin of those who don't believe... I don't know... I am trying to love this friend as God would have me love him... I am trying to not judge him, and show God's love to him. Its part of making the choice to love God. Pray for him, and for this girl. They both need it. And pray for me that I can be a good influence on my friend.

In other news...
My Pastor said something HILARIOUS today! He said: "It is easier to find a dodo bird cruising around downtown Nashville than it is to find a guy who follows in the ways of Jesus."
And MAN is he right!


May the love of God continue to interupt your daily lives!

MSCL