“I ain’t saying you treated me unkind, you coulda done better but I don’t mind, you just kinda wasted my precious time, but don’t think twice it’s all right.”
I was thinking about Nick today while listening to this song. I wrote him this letter. I was going to email it to him. It’s a beautifully written letter. I’m not sure now if I want to send it. In my letter I said that I hope we meet again later in life. That someday we can be friends again. Will he even matter later in life? Will I still care years from now? I’m not sure. In a few years I will have done amazing things. I plan on having finished grad school, and I would like to think that I will have started a career. Where would he fit? Would we talk on the phone? Would it be awkward? Where does my ex-boyfriend fit into my life? I mean, will he even think of me years from now? He’s “the reason I’m traveling on.” I mean I wish there was something he would do or say to make me change my mind about us, but it’s all right. “Good bye is too good a word babe so I’ll just say fare-thee-well.” This song is so much like us. Even if he were to feel any sort of guilt about the two of us I would tell him not to. I would tell him it was all right.
Today, while sitting in a café in Vienna, I thought about him, missed him, and moved on at the same. I realized today, while sitting in this café in Vienna, that I will find someone else. And that Nick wasn’t the great love of my life. I realized that I shouldn’t think twice, it’s all right. So, there you have it. I am ok. I have moved on. I’m ok with the fact that he didn’t say goodbye. It’s better that way. Vienna is not only the start of a new chapter in my life, it’s the start of a new me. And I will be all right.
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